so, I don't post in here anymore. but, every so often...I have this urge.
and here I am.
lets start with this boy. he is a vendor at my store. I've known (of) him for quite some time. he was always really nice/pleasant. and always! smiling. and he is adorable. I'm not very aggressive when it comes to boys I like. and, I always just assume the boy would never be interested in me. I'm lame, basically. so, I guess I've had a crush on him for, at least, a year and a half. and, it's been a little less than a year since I first told anyone about this crush. everyone was like "you should say something..." and, I was always too shy. I could barely look him in the eyes without blushing. I couldn't imagine what talking to him would be like. I kind of forgot about it. mainly, because I never worked during the time he came into the store. and, one day, I was informed that a girl I worked with told him I liked him. I was so embarrassed. and, for whatever reason, I started getting scheduled on friday mornings a lot after that. whenever he was in the store, I'd hide in the backroom or just watch him from a distance (creepy mo'fo' right??)...months go by. I am, once again, rarely ever scheduled friday mornings and the girl from work, after I go on and on about how cute he is, tells me that he asked about me one day. "WHAT?!?!?!?!" and she then told me that he asked her if I still worked there. etc. OMG! I couldn't stop smiling. he knew I existed? what??? a few more weeks pass and I'm like "you should see if he has a gf, and tell him I want to hang out with him..." so. like a month later, she finally tells him. and, apparently, he seemed excited and said he was interested in hanging out with me. OH! and he didn't have a gf!!! I was so excited. the next week she was supposed to get his number/give him my number. apparently, before she could even ask for his, he gave her his number...already written on a peice of paper. and then asked her for mine. so, I'm assuming he was just as eager as I was. I called him that day. but he didn't answer! the weekend goes by. and around 9pm on monday, he called! HE WAS SO CUTE. he said he had gone out of town and would've called me sooner, and that he was sorry. cute! he wanted to hang out that tues. or wed. but neither of us, at the time, could come up with anything. so we agreed to call eachother if/when we had any ideas. I spent all of tuesday freaking out. everyone was telling me different things. see a movie. don't see a movie. go to a bar. don't go to a bar. etc. on wednesday. I just really wanted to hang out with him. so, I called and said all I could come up with was a movie. fell asleep. and woke up to him calling. we made plans for later that night. I was so nervous. and excited! I guess you could say it was my first "date". I couldn't bare letting him pay, so I made sure I was first to buy my ticket. before the movie, we talked. and it was very comfortable. he's such a nice boy. and after the movie, we waited around in the parking lot and talked some more. I COULDN'T STOP SMILING. he's adorable. and funny. just super nice. later on we made plans to meet up with a friend of mine. he rode with me, and that gave us more time to talk. we bought some alcohol and then followed my friend to her friend's house. my friend Leah and her friend Katie kept giving me these looks like "omg! he is adorable!" cuz, he is. I can't get over it. I really don't know why...but, I started drinking as soon as we got there. and quickly, I became incredibly intoxicated. some drinking games were played. random conversations. I had to refrain from throwing myself all over him (Justin, by the way). I am ridiculously touchy feely when I am drunk. I DID GOOD, though. I behaved. everyone got along with him. and he said he was enjoying himself. we left. and he had to drive. when we got to his car, he offered to drive me home. but it's kind of out of the way. and I didn't want to be a nuissance. so, I drove myself home. he called me when he got home to make sure I made it to my house alright. SO CUTE.
I saw him friday morning. and he looked adorable! we talked for a bit. the first thing I said to him was, "just so you know, I spent all of yesterday puking. all over the place!" probably not the greatest thing to greet someone with. but he laughed!
I am trying to be incredibly nonchalant about everything, though. for a lot of reasons. but, really, I am okay with whatever may come of this. I most def. hope he likes me just as much as I like him. but, even if he doesn't I think we could def. be friends. he's just so nice! I won't think about it too much. and, that is another thing I love about all of this. I think he is amazing. and incredibly attractive. but, I am not INSANE about him. I've been insane about some boys...and, let me tell you, it is not fun. and never works out the way an insane brain hopes.
we'll see, I guess.
yeah. so, i was gonna write about other stuff. but, I don't feel like it!
holla.
and here I am.
lets start with this boy. he is a vendor at my store. I've known (of) him for quite some time. he was always really nice/pleasant. and always! smiling. and he is adorable. I'm not very aggressive when it comes to boys I like. and, I always just assume the boy would never be interested in me. I'm lame, basically. so, I guess I've had a crush on him for, at least, a year and a half. and, it's been a little less than a year since I first told anyone about this crush. everyone was like "you should say something..." and, I was always too shy. I could barely look him in the eyes without blushing. I couldn't imagine what talking to him would be like. I kind of forgot about it. mainly, because I never worked during the time he came into the store. and, one day, I was informed that a girl I worked with told him I liked him. I was so embarrassed. and, for whatever reason, I started getting scheduled on friday mornings a lot after that. whenever he was in the store, I'd hide in the backroom or just watch him from a distance (creepy mo'fo' right??)...months go by. I am, once again, rarely ever scheduled friday mornings and the girl from work, after I go on and on about how cute he is, tells me that he asked about me one day. "WHAT?!?!?!?!" and she then told me that he asked her if I still worked there. etc. OMG! I couldn't stop smiling. he knew I existed? what??? a few more weeks pass and I'm like "you should see if he has a gf, and tell him I want to hang out with him..." so. like a month later, she finally tells him. and, apparently, he seemed excited and said he was interested in hanging out with me. OH! and he didn't have a gf!!! I was so excited. the next week she was supposed to get his number/give him my number. apparently, before she could even ask for his, he gave her his number...already written on a peice of paper. and then asked her for mine. so, I'm assuming he was just as eager as I was. I called him that day. but he didn't answer! the weekend goes by. and around 9pm on monday, he called! HE WAS SO CUTE. he said he had gone out of town and would've called me sooner, and that he was sorry. cute! he wanted to hang out that tues. or wed. but neither of us, at the time, could come up with anything. so we agreed to call eachother if/when we had any ideas. I spent all of tuesday freaking out. everyone was telling me different things. see a movie. don't see a movie. go to a bar. don't go to a bar. etc. on wednesday. I just really wanted to hang out with him. so, I called and said all I could come up with was a movie. fell asleep. and woke up to him calling. we made plans for later that night. I was so nervous. and excited! I guess you could say it was my first "date". I couldn't bare letting him pay, so I made sure I was first to buy my ticket. before the movie, we talked. and it was very comfortable. he's such a nice boy. and after the movie, we waited around in the parking lot and talked some more. I COULDN'T STOP SMILING. he's adorable. and funny. just super nice. later on we made plans to meet up with a friend of mine. he rode with me, and that gave us more time to talk. we bought some alcohol and then followed my friend to her friend's house. my friend Leah and her friend Katie kept giving me these looks like "omg! he is adorable!" cuz, he is. I can't get over it. I really don't know why...but, I started drinking as soon as we got there. and quickly, I became incredibly intoxicated. some drinking games were played. random conversations. I had to refrain from throwing myself all over him (Justin, by the way). I am ridiculously touchy feely when I am drunk. I DID GOOD, though. I behaved. everyone got along with him. and he said he was enjoying himself. we left. and he had to drive. when we got to his car, he offered to drive me home. but it's kind of out of the way. and I didn't want to be a nuissance. so, I drove myself home. he called me when he got home to make sure I made it to my house alright. SO CUTE.
I saw him friday morning. and he looked adorable! we talked for a bit. the first thing I said to him was, "just so you know, I spent all of yesterday puking. all over the place!" probably not the greatest thing to greet someone with. but he laughed!
I am trying to be incredibly nonchalant about everything, though. for a lot of reasons. but, really, I am okay with whatever may come of this. I most def. hope he likes me just as much as I like him. but, even if he doesn't I think we could def. be friends. he's just so nice! I won't think about it too much. and, that is another thing I love about all of this. I think he is amazing. and incredibly attractive. but, I am not INSANE about him. I've been insane about some boys...and, let me tell you, it is not fun. and never works out the way an insane brain hopes.
we'll see, I guess.
yeah. so, i was gonna write about other stuff. but, I don't feel like it!
holla.
